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Your highs and lows of this month.

Lows: Working 6 days straight.  Waiting for my Berkeley decision.

Highs: Getting paid for working 6 days straight.  Being employed.  Going to the Giants game.  Celebrating my Eric's birthday.  Having my weekends (mostly) back.  Finishing this 30 day challenge!

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Goals for the next 30 days.

In 30 days, the date will be May 21st.  That's the first out of two days for my last finals at DVC.   One of my obvious goals is to pass these finals.  Also, in regards to school, I plan to figure out where I'm going to school for my bachelor's.  It shouldn't be hard though; if I get into Cal, then I go there.  If not, well, I've got only one back up.  Another aspect of the college thing that I want to figure out in the next 30 days is my living situation. Eric and I have already said we want to move in together, but I definitely have to make sure with the important parties, including him, that it's not going to cause too much turmoil.  Another goal I would like to achieve in the next 30 days is starting and actually adhering to another 30 day challenge.  Ironic, I know. 

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Something that you miss.

I miss daycare.  I miss having a set nap time and a set snack time.  I miss playing in the backyard until lunch.  I miss the simple lunches we had that were so amazing and delicious.  I miss getting dropped off and wanting to go home, then wanting to stay longer when my parents came to pick me up.  I miss being taken care of.  This isn't a very creative post, but I can't help it.  I miss almost every aspect of daycare.  We went on field trips to Marine World and the Jelly Belly factory.  We also went to the park often, and there was always something to do.  There were definite rules, don't get me wrong, but it never occurred to me to break them.  It didn't seem worth it to get in trouble and have precious play time taken away.

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A problem that you have had.

I've said this before, but I've had a problem about internalizing my problems.  I never liked telling my friends, I wouldn't tell my parents if something was bothering me, and even when I started dating, I didn't tell my boyfriend.  For me, this led to a lot of tossing and turning at night, the inability to vent, and I ended up writing a lot.  Writing helped, but I never got the feeling of the other person sympathizing or empathizing with me.  I never liked bothering people with my problems because they didn't feel important enough for them, but I realize now that that's what friends do.  Boyfriends are useful for venting and crying to as well.  Having a great support system has been pivotal in my post high school life, and I know I'd be pretty broken if I were still internalizing today.  I still do, but it's not anywhere close to what it was before.  Being with Eric has really almost cured me of keeping all my problems to myself.  I don't know if that's for the better, but he seems to enjoy hearing me talk and vent.

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What kind of person attracts you.

I'm extremely attracted to intelligence.  I love guys who can keep up a conversation about things that are relevant.  Current events, developing technology, foodie things.  I also like a guy who is well-mannered.  It's extremely important that a guy gets along well with my friends and family, and common decency to all human beings is too.  I couldn't be attracted to anyone who is rude or arrogant.  Confidence is great, but confidence to the point of cockiness is repulsive.  On that point, confidence is extremely attractive.  When a guy is good at something or really just comfortable enough in his own skin, it's admirable.  It's not just desirable in guys, but in people, as well.  Looks help too, but a guy can be really hot and really arrogant, and I wouldn't be interested.

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Someone who fascinates you and why.

Dumbledore.  This is extremely geeky of me, but this man is very mysterious.  JK Rowling explains very little about him in the actual books, and even in the press, she doesn't reveal everything about his character.  I have always liked the Harry Potter series, but the character I've been most interested in is Albus Dumbledore.  There isn't much more explanation for my fascination other than that there is a lot of mystery that surrounds his life.

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Your favorite movie and what it's about.

I don't know about my favorite movie, but one movie that I will watch whenever it is on tv is A Walk to Remember with Mandy Moore and Shane West.  It's about a typical "bad boy" who ends up working with the typical "good girl" at school.  He falls in love with her when she tells him not to, and he finds out she has leukemia.  It's a Nicholas Sparks based movie, so it's a huge tearjerker.  It's not even the love story that gets me bawling in this movie, it's the scene between Shane West's character and his father.  Seeing men cry is probably my biggest weakness in movies, especially between fathers and sons.  Those moments are rare in movies, and even more so in real life.  A Walk to Remember seems like one of the ultimate chick flicks.  I know most of the women in my family and my circle of friends will stop to watch it too.  There have been times when I mention watching it the night before, and my mom or aunties will say they watched the exact same time. It's just one of those movies.