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A time you thought about ending your own life.

How depressing.  I had one very short time when I first transferred high schools and was applying for colleges that the stress and expectations got really scary.  All I really remember is being scared of not getting into the colleges I wanted and failing and disappointing everyone.  I never sought help, I never told anyone.  It was a huge internal struggle that didn't last very long.  I realized how selfish and really useless way of dealing with my anxieties.  And honestly, there was just no way I would've been able to take my own life.  That's just way too big of a responsibility for me to handle.  Bigger than not getting into college.

Suffice to say, I'm still here.  Ending my life would have kept me from working and meeting awesome artists, from going to school and learning a whole lot about sociology, and from meeting my boyfriend.  It's a wonder that I ever considered ending my own life before, considering how much I love life now.